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Oppositely, Sadness

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Everyone gets sad once in awhile, so this page is mainly poems I've written when I was sad or depressed.

"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it."
--Helen Keller

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Your Shadow On The Ground

I'm tired of feeling so angry

I'm tired of all the pain

And I'm tired of searching for warmth

in your shadow on the ground

Your Shadow On The Ground

I'm so tired of wasting away

I am tired of breaking down

And I'm tired of watching each day fly by

darkened by your shadow on the ground

Your Shadow On The Ground

In the midst of all this suffering and grief

My heart lies in shambles at your feet

And I can't help but wonder

Will I ever be the same again

I'm tired of believing in nothing

I am tired of animosity

And I'm tired of staying up so late

unable to sleep because of

Your Shadow On The Ground

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Humbled

Humbled again
I am
torn by the torrent
of your harsh words

Trembling
scared to death
of what insults and inquiries
will come from you next

Thrust out
into
somewhere I've never been
without a guide
and
anyone who might help me
you turn them away

And yet I still want you
to take me in your arms
and whisper sweet things to me
despite
the tears cascading down my face

And yet deep down
I know
you hate something
about me
and it's something
I cannot erase

Thirsty again
I am
drenched by a rain of
cotton balls and rusty nails
I love you
Shut up
I love you
Shut up

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I Say

I say I like to count the stars

lying on my back on clear summer nights

with the night air licking my skin

          You say that's ridiculous there are too many stars to count

I say I like to make shapes with the clouds

high up in a tree getting inspired greatly

with the cool breeze kissing my cheeks

          You say how stupid the coulds are just vapors in the sky

I say I want to be free someday

and you take it as I'm saying free of you

and you say I must want to leave

          You say you'll do anything to keep me with you though

I say I have dreams that were shattered

and you ask what they were as if you could change it

but I brush off your request, I don't want to speak of it

          You say you're hurt that I don't confide in you much

I say to myself I feel stuck and

I am fighting to keep my head above all this

I am struggling to retain conciousness

I am in an anesthetic vale, a stoic being I've come to be

I say I am pitiful and you agree

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JAWS AND GENERATION GAPS

With open, flapping jaws
on rusty hinges
They told me things I'd heard
since I was a little girl
They told me how bad I'd been
They told me how much they cared
They said "When I was your age..."
but I turned a deaf ear at that point
For they grew up decades ago
when life was different
I bet they weren't upset
So with their open flapping jaws
on rusty hinges
They told me why they were angry
The generation gap had so much to say
but it was silenced
And I was left in tears
with a jaw swinging on broken hinges
soundless breaths coming out
in short gasps
trying to say what the generation gap had to say
But all I could do was let the tears fall
and keep quiet.

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LOVED ONE

No sense in writing a letter, coz you will never read it
No sense in crying our eyes out, but we do it anyway
Though our tears can't bring you back
No sense in trying to wish you back, coz its not gonna happen
No sense in trying to pull you back, but we do it anyway
Though we know you're already gone
And we must hold on
And we must be strong
For you and in your honor
Loved One

No sense in waiting for you to return, coz we know where you are
No sense in pretending you're still here, but we do it anyway
Though we know youre already gone
No sense in saying were sorry, coz you will never hear it
No sense in crying our eyes out, but we do it anyway
Though our tears wont bring you back
And we must hold on
And we must be strong
For you and in your honor
Loved one

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SAYING GOODBYE

I faced you bravely and said goodbye
Knowing I'd never see you again
I remembered your smile
and shed a tear
but I knew it couldn't make you come back
I remembered your bad days
shed one more tear
But it too fell helpless

I faced your coffin
I said my goodbyes
even though you couldn't hear them
Then the hardest time
I turned my back
and I walked away
back to my seat
Id said goodbye to a well-loved friend
And I'd turned away
and still I live